Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Is My Journey Ending?

Well, six months and three weeks have passed since I had my precious little baby girl. And during that six months, she has had formula only a handful of times, in the beginning, when my supply was struggling. Ever since the beginning, I have struggled to keep my supply flowing. I have tried, and tried. I have ate cookies, taken pills, gotten up in the middle of the night when she has not, pumped like a crazy woman, and nursed like a crazier woman. On London's six month appointment, her pediatrician informs me that she isn't gaining weight as she should be, and that she needs more ounces in her bottles. "But she's not hungry after I feed her!" I protest, not wanting to be ruled as the bad mommy in the room. He explains that she has just gotten used to eating only four ounces at a time, and that a healthy baby requires AT LEAST 24 ounces a day, but should be eating more. What?! My daughter has been getting around 20 ounces...Uh-oh! I immediately realize that I just don't produce enough breast milk for that!!! My mind flashes to my freezer, where ten little bags of formula sit, and I panic, knowing that those will quickly disappear, since my supply has dropped even more in the past few days. Panic!! What am I to do? Do I HAVE to give her formula? I can't imagine loosing the bonding time with her! It's our special time to be together. Something that NO ONE else can give her! Something that only I can provide. As selfish as it sounds, even her Daddy can't compare to that! What am I supposed to do? Tears well up in my eyes, and my mind is racing. I'm trying to think of what I am doing wrong. What can I do differently? How can I FIX this?!?

During the last week and a half, I have been kicking it into higher gear trying to build my milk supply back up. No luck! It's just not working out for me. I am too exhausted to get up in the middle of the night anymore, and interrupt what little sleep I do get, to pump. Yet, here I am, freaking out because my supply is running so low that today MIGHT be her last day of solely breast milk! I'm devastated. Not only because I feel like I failed her. But I feel like my body has betrayed me!! I know of plenty of mommies that are doing just fine nursing their little ones. But not this mommy. I'm the mommy that has made it to six months, and now I'm possibly not going to make it to even seven. :-( It's so heartbreaking.

I keep watching her when she nurses, and feel like crying on the spot. I can't help but wonder, "Will this be the last time that I get to nurse her?" I really wanted it to be my decision when I would stop. Somewhere around 12 months. But, instead, it's not my decision at all. I am being forced to deal with it being out of my control. I don't want to lose control. It is one of the best things I have done for my little girl. I want to continue! I want to do more! It's what is best for her. :-(

My friends have suggested so many things, and they have been wonderful in trying to help me cope with this. Keep trying. Sometimes it's not meant to be. Try donated breastmilk (although I wouldn't be able to bring myself to do that). Don't give up. Pump more. Feed more. Take pills. Take prescriptions. Let it go. HOW??? Even they can't make me truly feel better about this.

I feel like an extreme failure. I feel like I haven't done all that I can do to stop this from happening. And in reality, I probably have not. But it some ways I know I tried my best, and my hardest. I've been dedicated. But it's not enough. It's never been enough. And in some ways, while I've given London the best start, she's also suffered some from that too. And that is probably what kills me the most.

Monday, November 29, 2010

Merry Christmas to me! And maybe even to you!

Usually, I only use my personal blog for blogging about my new family, but this offer, I couldn't resist! Shutterfly is giving away 50 free Christmas cards if you blog about their promotion. Seriously?!? I can do that! And what's better, is I'm blogging about a company that I really LOVE.
As you all know, I am a photographer. I use Shutterfly a lot to order prints of the pictures that I take. And I really love the fact that they are FAST! I also must confess that I enjoy getting the email that says, "A big orange package is on it's way to you!" ha ha That really makes my day! An added bonus is that I can print pictures to any Target store and pick some prints up the day of my request. How convenient is that? VERY!
I haven't done it yet, but I'm going to be checking out Shutterfly for ordering my family calendars next year too. The photos that I include in them are priceless gifts of our vacations, and I know the family really enjoys them too. Just think, with the quality that Shutterfly has on prints, I'm excited to see what the calendars would look like!
So, this year, I plan to send Christmas photo cards with London's pictures on them. I'm a little behind, but have no fear that I can get it done. lol Shutterfly is going to help so much in that category! I've been looking at cards online, and must admit there are so many that I want to
order. I can't have them all though. lol These two are favorites, I must say.

So many choices, so little time! But I know that whichever card I choose, it will turn out great!
I have ordered photo books a lot here lately, from Shutterfly. They are always quick to arrive. I'm glad that I don't have to wait, and wait. Sometimes, they even come in less time than the order confirmation email says to allow. That's ALWAYS a plus! I am ordering two photo books for our parents as Christmas presents this year. I can't wait to see their faces when they open them. I know they'll enjoy them as much as I have enjoyed mine. They are a great way to preserve memories.
I might check out the coffee mugs next. My mother loves her coffee, and she also loves pictures of her grandkids. So maybe those two can go hand in hand. The possibilities for gifts are endless! And now, I've talked myself into looking at the website some more for more ideas!
Have you checked out Shutterfly yet? lol What are you waiting for?! Their quality is awesome! Their website is friendly. Their delivery is FAST. I love everything about them. As if you need anymore reasons, you can check out getting your free Christmas cards by clicking here. There are lots of beautiful cards for you to pick from. What's even better, is if you can't decide on just one, you have many more. Order several different designs if you have to! ENJOY!!

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

So Much For...

So much for the 30 Days project! I got pretty far, but in the end, my busy schedule won out. Oh well. lol

London, London, London. This little girl is the joy of my life!! I can't get enough! We did her 5 month pictures this past month, and I must say they turned out great! I really love the way she pouts. I do wish she would smile more. lol But she is the cutest anyway. :-)

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

30 Days-Day 23

Something you crave for a lot.

Chai Tea! Thai Food!

30 Days-Day 22

What makes you different than everyone else?

Everything. I am me and no one else. While I am similar to people in many ways, I am one person that can't be duplicated. Unless you count my little clone, London. ha ha I can't really describe how I am different, I just am.

30 Days-Day 21

Two of my favorite things, Fall, and the Blue Ridge Parkway. I love this time of year, and I love traveling on the BRP and taking pictures.
A picture of something that makes you happy.

30 Days-Day 20

Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future.

Definitely Andy! And that's a good thing, because I'm marrying him next year and he's London's daddy! lol Seriously, I want to be with him for the rest of my life. We have had our ups and downs, but the numerous good times absolutely out-weigh the bad! I <3 him!

30 Days-Day 19

Nicknames you have and why you have them.

Really I only have Nesa now. It's a product of my name, just shortened. It came to be because a lot of people can't pronounce my first name, so I made it easier for them!

30 Days-Day 18

Plan, dreams, goals you have.

In the immediate future, I plan to get married. Next year! I'm so excited! I also dream to watch my baby girl grow healthy and happy. My goal is to live a long time and see her children one day. :-) I also want to get out of debt, completely. Own my own home, which I design. Have at least one more child (i I want to open my own photography studio, and be solely a photographer. I would love to move to Tennessee.

30 Days-Day 17

Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day, and why.

Hmmm...that's a tough one! I love my life. It's not always perfect, but I love it. If I had to switch with someone, it would be Martina That's random. I really have no idea who. But she has a beautiful house, and money! I could pay off all my bills in one day and be debt free forever! ha ha

30 Days-Day 16

Another picture of yourself.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

30 Days - Day 15

Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

If I Said You Had a Beautiful Body (Would You Hold It Against Me) - Bellamy Brothers
Mr. Policeman - Brad Paisley
It's Not Just Me - Rascal Flatts
Loved Too Much - Ty Herndon
Anything But Mine - Kenny Chesney
Money Honey - State of Shock
Tim McGraw - Taylor Swift
Wishing - Sugarland
Touch My Body - Mariah Carey
That's How Your Know It's Love - Deana Carter

30 Days-Day 13

A letter to someone that has hurt you recently.

Dear "friend",

I am sorry that we had to go our separate ways. You see, I just couldn't take care of myself and my unborn baby along with you, your boyfriend, and all four +one incoming children that you have. I'm sorry that you felt I was supposed to buy your kids their school supplies because you didn't want to get off your lazy butt and work. I'm sorry that I helped you move out of the house you were living in, and away from your abusive boyfriend (the same one that pushed you down the stairs and caused a miscarriage) only for you to return to him the next week. I'm sorry that I didn't have sympathy when you called me the following weekend to complain that he had hit you again. I do hope that you have straightened your life out and realized that it's not about you, but the children you are trying to raise. I really hope that the rumor I heard about your 15 year old being pregnant is not true. I do feel that she might have avoided that if you had taught her about waiting to have sex, or at least using protection, rather than teach her that having sex with whatever guy walked through the door was OK. I am glad that you will not be around my daughter, to influence her in anyway. I hope nothing but the best for you, and hope that you are doing well. I have been watching you do this for over 10 years, so I think you probably haven't changed at all.

Your ex-friend, Waynesa

30 Days-Day 14

A picture of you and your family.

Now that I can do! This picture is of us at our 2010 vacation to Myrtle Beach, SC. We go every year with Andy's Grandmother, Parents, Aunts, Uncles, and Cousins. Love it!

30 Days-Day 12

How you found out about Blogger and why you made one.

A friend told me about it. I figured that I was on every other social network, so why not this one too. Unfortunately, I don't post a blog as often as I should, and I probably don't blog the best, but it's been nice to create something. I would much rather write in my journal though. It will be nice in years to come for London to be able to look back at this and see what I have wrote about her over the years.

30 Days-Day 11

Another picture of you and your friends.

Seriously?! Didn't I just SKIP this one?

30 Days-Day 10

Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Happy - 4th of July by Shooter Jennings
Sad - End of the Road by Boyz II Men
Bored - Anything! lol
Hyped - Phantom of the Opera by Andrew Lloyd Webber
Mad - Again, anything.

I'm music crazy! So I listen to all kinds of music, all the time. I'm always listening to something, and it doesn't really have to be a happy, sad, or mad time. lol

Thursday, October 7, 2010

30 Days-Day 9

Something you are proud of in the last few days.


I lost four pounds! lol Now, let's keep it off.

30 Days-Day 8

Short term goals for this month, and why.

This one is tough. Lately I haven't been setting goals for myself, and that's not a good thing. I really need to! So here goes!

Get off my bum and get my photography kicking in gear again!
I've been taking a hiatus since I had my daughter. I've really enjoyed the time with her, but now it's time to get deep into my photography again. I've been taking pictures here and there, but nothing concrete. And I haven't been applying myself as much as I can. This month is the perfect time for this goal, because Fall is my favorite time of year. Hopefully the changing trees will be a great motivator towards this goal.

Visit family more.
London is growing up so fast, and she's only seen her extended family a couple of times. She has met my grandparents once. And I can literally count the amount of times she has spent with my Dad on one hand! :-( It's sad really. Luckily, she sees Andy's parents and my Mom a lot, so she doesn't go without family. I plan to try to visit my Dad next week while Andy and I are on vacation. We are going to try to go visit his brother sometime next week too.

Weight loss!
This is a BIG ONE. I was doing Weight Watchers for a couple of years before I got pregnant with London. I lost BIG. But then I gained some of it back, and then got pregnant, and then, and then, and then...But I need to get my hiney in gear and start the process again! I'm determined that I am going to be able to play with my daughter and not feel restricted because of my weight.

Get on it! Stop procrastinating! Get to work on time....ALWAYS. No one and two minute lates anymore! Get up on time. Start hearing the alarm clock again. I could go on and on with this one. But I won't. I just need to figure out better how to balance being a mommy with being a career woman...and I am determined to do it!!

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

30 Days-Day 7

A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you.

That's easy!

My little London Paige has made the BIGGEST impact on my life. It took me SO long to get her! I waited, and waited, and waited. ha ha I love her with everything in me. And the love in her eyes when she looks at me, melts my heart! I don't know that I remember life without her! And I never want to know what that feels like again. :-) If I get to look back on my life and pick one thing that I've done right, it's her, through and through.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

30 Days-Day 6

Favorite super hero, and why.

Batman...HOT, HOT, HOT...well, the actor anyway. ha ha I think I've enjoyed the looks on almost all of the batmans. :-)

Saturday, October 2, 2010

30 Days-Day 5

A picture of somewhere you've been to.

Fripp Island, South Carolina. One of my favorite vacations. We stayed on a gated island, and I enjoyed every minute of it. Lost five pounds that week too! lol Andy's family takes a vacation every year...there is about 30 of us! And every year we grow bigger with the new little additions. I snapped this butterfly in front of one of our beach houses. I love the way the colors are brought out, and the butterfly is mid-air. It's one of my favorites!

Friday, October 1, 2010

30 Days-Day 4

A habit that you wish you didn't have.

If I had to pick just one, I would say, procrastination! I used to never I do it all the time! It makes me late for everything, and I HATE being late. Punctual is my favorite thing to be, and I miss it these days! Everyone tells me to get used to it, it's because I now have a little one, but I REFUSE to get used to it! I WILL get back on track! ha ha I'll step off my soapbox now...

Thursday, September 30, 2010

30 Days-Day 3

A picture of me and friends...Uh-oh! I don't have a recent one! Wow...I'll have to postpone this post until a later date...

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

30 Days-Day 2

What's the meaning behind my blog name?

Baby makes three! It's obvious! lol Andy and I brought a beautiful baby girl, named London, into the world May 20, 2010. She is the love of our lives! My blog has become pretty much about her since I found out I was pregnant with her. I plan to continue documenting our life with her as much as I can. Thus, Baby Makes Three!

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Day 1

Boy, it was hard to find a picture! I became a photographer so that I can be BEHIND the you've probably heard me say before. ha ha This picture is of me and my baby girl when she was only two weeks old.

15 Interesting Facts About Me:

1. I am mommy to the prettiest little girl
2. I am a photographer
3. I got good grades in school without even studying (I think my brother still envies me!)
4. I've never been out of the country
5. I have been breastfeeding for 4 months, and am very proud of myself
6. I was born in Virginia, but spent my summers in New York
7. I didn't really know my father that well until I was in my twenties, now we are very close
8. My favorite charity is St. Jude's Children Hospital, I only wish I could give them a lot of money
9. I have one sister
10. I have six brothers
11. I was a band geek
12. My favorite season is Fall
13. My favorite color used to be Purple, it's now Pink
14. I want to move to Williamsburg, VA
15. My favorite book is The Velveteen Rabbit

I don't know if those were interesting facts to you...but they are to me! :-)

30 Days!

I got this idea from another blogger...starting today, I'm going to do a "30 Day Project". Below are 30 things that I will post about over the next 30 days. Come join me!

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your Blog name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Blogger and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Your favorite song.

Monday, September 27, 2010

A Newborn's Conversation with God

Love this!

A baby asked God, "They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow,
but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?"

God said, "Your angel will be waiting for you and will take care of you."

The child further inquired, "But tell me, here in heaven I don't have
to do anything but sing and smile to be happy."

God said, "Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you.
And you will feel your angel's love and be very happy."

Again the small child asked, "And how am I going to be able to understand
when people talk to me if I don't know the language?"

God said, "Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet words
you will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel will
teach you how to speak."

"And what am I going to do when I want to talk to you?"

God said, "Your angel will place your hands together and will teach
you how to pray."

"Who will protect me?"

God said, "Your angel will defend you even if it means risking its life."

"But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore."

God said, "Your angel will always talk to you about Me and will teach
you the way to come back to Me, even though I will always be next to you."

At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from Earth
could be heard and the child hurriedly asked, "God, if I am to leave
now, please tell me my angel's name."

God said, You will simply call her, "Mom."

Do I REALLY Have a Four Month Old?!

My little girl is four months old!!! Well, she was four months old a week ago. Where does the time go?

London makes me SO happy! She's the true love of my life. (Sorry Andy!) ha ha I love her to pieces. She is growing so much, and developing along the way. She's of course smiling, and belly laughing so hard that it gets me going too. She's so sweet, and loving. I never imagined that my life would be so complete with her. :-)

I haven't done anything with pictures here lately! Imagine, and photographer, that hasn't even done her own child's pictures in two months! I promise, I'm going to get to it...maybe tomorrow...maybe this weekend...but I will! lol

What about her daddy? Oh my! Could I ask for a better daddy?! NO WAY! I don't think one exists! He is SO good with her. She LOVES him like no other. She literally lights up when he walks into the room. She is absolutely a daddy's girl. Sweet! I think he rushes home to see her! ha ha

I plan to try and blog more about her. I've really fallen quite behind. More to come!

Friday, August 20, 2010

I Am Truly Blessed!

I haven't blogged in so long. I guess I've been very busy with this new little miracle in my life.

I can't get over how truly blessed I am. I don't know how I was selected to be mommy to such a beautiful, precious baby girl...but I am grateful!! I thank God everyday for her. She is my pride and joy. My number one.

Every night, it's so hard to put her to bed. lol All I want to do is sit and stare at her precious little face. I would just hold her all day if I could get away with it and not make a spoiled child. lol It's all I can do to swaddle her and put her in her bassinet to sleep for the night. I do, of course. Because she needs her rest too. ha ha

Well, when I put her to bed, there's always the morning to look forward to! She wakes up smiling at me, and it melts my heart. I am so in love, that I can't stand it! lol She definitely has me wrapped around her little finger!

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Announcing London Paige Drewry!

Little London is finally here! Well...she was here two weeks ago, but she's a demanding little girl! lol

London Paige Drewry was born May 20, 2010 at 2:34 pm. She weighed 9 pounds, 9 ounces and was 20 1/2 inches long! She's very healthy, and mommy and daddy are very happy with her. We've settled in to life with a newborn, with several ups and downs. All of it's worth it though, when I look into her little eyes (when they are open!). I would do it all over again. I just LOVE her to pieces!!!

She has already become a daddy's girl. He's so in love that I wonder if he has room in there for me anymore! lol Just kidding. He's stepped right into the "daddy" role, and is doing a GREAT job at it! He has been a God-send to me!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Moving In

New house! Scary, and fun! We moved into our new place on March 12, and I'm as homesick as they come! It is getting better, but I miss everything and everyone familiar. My family seems so far away. But yet, they still aren't. We've had several things the landlord has had to fix in the house, and I think that has made it a much worse experience for me. But, gradually, things are getting better and getting fixed. Hopefully, the next 12 months will go smoothly (and quickly!).

The place is cute. Charming even. I just miss home. It's not home. At least not yet. We are working on it though. It's pretty large for our starter place, and the bedrooms are HUGE! I love that. Storage space is an issue, but it's not as bad as we had first thought. Come visit!

London's room will hopefully be setup in the next few days! Little one will be here in just a little over 7 weeks!!!! It's so hard to believe! I can't wait to hold our baby girl. :-) She is already so loved! We had a baby shower with my family, my friends and Andy's friends on March 7. We had a baby shower with Andy's family on March 21. We were spoiled by both!!! It feels so wonderful to be loved so much. And to know that London is going to be surrounded by such great people!

Andy and I celebrated our eight year anniversary on March 21 too. Wow! It's amazing to look back at our years together, and then to look at the past year and see what changes have come. This past year has been the most changes, I think for both of us. And this next year is going to be just as crazy. But I certainly welcome the changes. They are all good, and will hopefully continue to be.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Kicks for Daddy! (and other things)

I've been M.I.A. lately! I'm very behind on blogging, and while there are so many things to blog about, I'm sure I'll miss something!

We are moving!!! We signed a lease for a duplex in Staunton this month, and we move in on March 12th. I'm overly excited, and also nervous as can be, because I have never lived away from home. Andy hasn't really either. He lived in dorms while in college, but does that really count? ha ha We have both taken an extended weekend the weekend of March 12th, to do our moving and last minute shopping. I can't wait! Our little one gets to come home with Mommy AND Daddy! =-)

Andy first felt London's kicks on Valentine's Day! Boy, does this kid know about special occasions? I first felt her kick on New Year's Eve, and Andy first felt her kick on Valentine's Day. How cool is that? lol He only got to feel her kick briefly, then she was done. ha ha That seems to be her M.O. She didn't give the doctor much of a chance to make sure she was a girl either! ha ha I love that he has finally felt her kick though. I was beginning to think he never would. And he seemed so disappointed.

So boy, oh boy. EVERYONE is having a big year this year, I think. I've already been to one baby shower. I have another this weekend, another next weekend, one in April and a wedding shower in March. My brother's wife is pregnant too, and so is my cousin, so I have at least two more baby showers. Andy's cousin is getting married in July. We are getting married in October. Although, I am beginning to think it would be in our best interest to move our wedding to next year. Whew! I'm exhausted just thinking about it all! But, spending time with family and friends is always a plus! So I'm definitely not complaining. Oh yeah, my baby shower with my family is March 7th. The one that Andy's family is throwing for us is March 21. I'm excited!

That's all for now. I think..... <3

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

What's in A Name?

We have finally picked a first name for our little girl. London. :-) I LOVE it! We have no meaning behind it (like family name, location we've been) or anything like that. We just like it. I think it's a beautiful name. And I'm glad that Andy agreed to something that will not be SO popular. I really wanted a name that, when called in school, 13 girls wouldn't answer. ha ha So, I got that. And it's very pretty. I can't wait to meet her!!!

Now, on to the middle name. We have NO IDEA. lol It will come to us. We have time. I just wanted that first name, so that I could call her something. It's so strange to call Andy and tell him that we got this for London today, and that for London today. It still feels so weird to say it outloud. But I enjoy it, that's for sure.

London is definitely going to have to hold her own. She's going to be surrounded by BOYS! ha ha My brother has three boys. I babysit three boys. My cousin that's due in March is having a boy. My friend that's due in March is having a boy. My sister-in-law that's due in July is having a boy too! Poor little girl! At least their will be one girl cousin for her on Andy's side of the family that's her age. lol My brother does have two girls too, but they are older than London. She's definitely going to have to learn to not take any crap off the boys. But, she's a Crawford, I'm sure she'll have NO problem. lol

Tuesday, January 19, 2010


As everyone knows, I became a photographer so I don't have to be IN pictures. =-) However, since I am pregnant, who can go the entire pregnancy without taking pictures?? Here I am at 23 weeks. WOW, it's crazy! But I'm looking forward to meeting our baby girl.

Friday, January 15, 2010

We're Having a Girl!!!

Our doctor appointment was yesterday at 9:30am. We found out that our baby is very healthy so far, and everything seems to be developing normally. We also found out that we are having a little baby girl!!! I'm over the moon with excitement! I can just imagine all the pink and cute little dresses, and cute little bows...and...and....

Of course, everyone is excited too. My mom will be getting her first granddaughter. My Dad will have two grandchildren born this year, one a boy and one a girl...two months apart. Andy's parents are getting their first grandchild too! I think Andy is warming up to the fact that he is going to be a daddy to a GIRL! ha ha ha He's definitely thankful that the baby is healthy, and that's all that matters. =-) I know she'll have him wrapped around her little finger. She already has me wrapped around it!

Monday, January 11, 2010

This is the Week!!! (Hopefully!)

Hopefully, this is the week! We have a doctor's appointment at 9:30am on Thursday. It's our anatomy scan!!! I've waited SO very long for it! I'll be 23 weeks by then! UGH! So, on Thursday, we will see our little one. Really, it will be for the first time, since the first ultrasound was at 6 weeks, and there was only a little dot then. We will get to make sure the baby is healthy. So far so good, but this is the "BIG one". We have no reason to believe the baby isn't healthy, but you never know. We will also hopefully find out the gender on Thursday too! I so hope the baby cooperates! It is Andy's child, after all. ;-) I want a girl, super badly, but I will be over the moon if it's a boy too. I just want a healthy child, over all. I hear that little boys are closer to their momma's, so Andy will have the disadvantage there. he he But, either way, I will be very proud to be called mommy by a boy or a girl. :-)

Wedding planning, 101! Yikes! Our wedding is 9 months away, and already I am feeling the pressure. I don't want an expensive wedding, yet I would like it to be nice. But finding venues, DJ's, caterers and such is hard work! I am very nervous about my dress, since I do not plan to even try one on until after little Drewry gets here. That will be probably in June or July, which will give me only 3 or 4 months to get everything straight and settled. Ick!!!! It's really very scary. I've always figured I would have at least a year, to a year and a half to plan my wedding. Now I'm trying to pull it off in 9 months! What am I thinking? Oh yeah, there's this man, that is so wonderful, and I can't wait to marry him!!!! <3